You were never learning.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009 at 10:37 PM
When you grew up, you learnt to walk, talk, jump, crawl,
Then you start to get older,
going to elementary school, then high school, college and university,
in between, there may be falling into and out of love,
then you start to find the right one to marry,
while trying to get a stable job,
when you finally got one, you'd think of saving up for your wedding and wife,
Finally, you found the right one and have saved enough money,
you decided to get married,
There goes the wedding bells,
and you start to live together as a married couple,
thats when you start to think of owning your own house, having your own car,
not forgetting the people who would bring happiness to your life, your kids,
Once you got your own house, car and kids,
you start to feel that everything is not enough for the family,
Companies start trying to pull you in,
that's where you think of changing jobs because of their high pay job offers,
as years goes by, things were fine until one day your company hit the bottom of the rocks,
things became worse, you found a new friend you didn't wanna know, STRESS.
Thats when you start venting your frustrations in all ways.
Getting fed up with many things in life.
I don't know what am I referring to in this way. Its random how I think how people would think about their life. Haha. Its not about anybody whom I know of, its just how I thought about what others would think.
On the other hand, I cannot stand how you will say about, "Believing in Christianity" was just believing. It's nothing more than that. Believing isn't going to bring you to heaven, if thats what you were thinking all along. Although believing is the first step to get into heaven, but there's more to it than it is. You have been going to church and yet you can speak words like these out from your mouth.
Respect, is that what you want, because I cannot comprehend of your doings. You love to say that I always think that Im right but what about yourself? When will you ever ADMIT your mistakes instead of blaming it on others? You never, never ever, admitted you were in the wrong. Why am I like that? You made me this way, all your doings, actions.. thank you for letting me know that such a person exists.
Thank God, more importantly, for letting me to understand and know of such things. & I know through all these falls, He will always stand with me till the end instead of you. He was the more revealing and loving God. Through Him, others were touched and from these people, I see true love and true actions of love. You were just simply plain doing for show. You never put Him first, ever in your life. You were either doing it for the sake of doing it or you were calling for Him just because you need His help and when you don't need His help, His gone, totally from your life.
I always try to be positive in life, to be strong and to be optimistic. Thats what I am because I know that nothing is going to end in this way. But why must you always come and spoil all of these I have? Why? When did you ever tried to understand how I would feel instead of yourself? Providing was just what you think you did enough for. How about our feelings? When did you ever tried to talk to us in your usual self? WHEN?